He could feel her breath on his neck
The lobe of his ear tingled
One hand at the small of her back the other trailing
up and down her spine
Her arms wrapped around his neck, subconsciously,
her pointer finger lazily played with the ends of his hair
It looked more like an embrace than dancing though
each step they took still in perfect sync with the other
“Did I tell you how beautiful you look?”
“Only once or twice” she said grinning
Her eyes now on fire like the way they once were
Ric had told her that night how beautiful she
was over and over
It would slip from his mouth
He had stood hours before in the apartment unabashedly
looking her up and down. But she didn’t mind. At that moment the way he looked at her felt good. It felt beautiful and
with nothing but admiration
Ric would watch her place the last dangling, silver
earring in her ear, and watch her take a step back to assess
“Perfect” he said standing behind
her
“Thank you” she said almost bashfully
She was perfect
That blue dress was made for her
It was subtle, elegant; a tasteful slit up the
side to reveal what every man who passed her would take a double take for, her legs
She turned to Ric; he wasn’t standing it
seemed two inches from her
Heels
She giggled, tickled that she could almost look
him square in the eyes in those heels
The one thing missing
Her neck bare
A perfect place for the diamond heart pendant
that she hadn’t worn since he wrecked both of their lives
He didn’t deserve to have her wear his heart;
he would have to earn it
He wouldn’t ask or suggest that she even
think of wearing it
He would earn her love, her trust again. He wanted
her to take his heart back on her own
For now the empty space would be a reminder
Dinner
Despite their efforts of “grown up”
conversation, the conversation seemed to revolve around Kristina and Chloe
Kristina had become wise beyond her three years
of life and had such ingenious but comical things to say at the most opportune times
Chloe had a thousand faces. Her mother’s
smirk, her father’s pondering look…. And that face of laughter. Pure unspoiled joy
It was easy to talk about what they did, what
they said. Both Ric and Alexis’ life revolved around them. Both were enamored with them
Chocolate, decadent chocolate layered with more
chocolate. Strawberries garnishing the sides of the plate
Alexis’
eyes lit up at the size of the desert and its contents “Made especially for you”
The
waiter said as he sat it down in front of her
“Ric?” Alexis said looking up at him
“All I said was you loved chocolate”
He said grinning “The chef did the rest”
Ric picked up a spoon and slid it through the
middle of the layers scooping up a bite and placing it to her lips
Alexis quickly obliged
Her eyes closed slowly
Ric watched as she let out a faint breath
“Good?”
“Good isn’t the
word for it” she said finally opening her eyes to Ric’s pleased face
“I knew that would get
you” he said now grinning
“Uh hmm”
His fingers reached for the
chocolate left on her lip
His finger now tracing her
bottom lip
That was it, the very moment.
The very moment when Alexis would have leaned in to him for a discreet kiss, the moment when Ric’s hand would have slid
a little further up her thigh under the table, the moment when dancing afterwards would have been forgotten as she whispered
‘take me home’ in to his ear
Alexis pulled away and Ric
quickly tried to recover
“Another bite?”
Ric handed her the spoon and
then picked up another for his own
Safe; a safe question, a safe
distraction
Dancing
It seemed more like an embrace
than dancing
They danced close
So close anyone who didn’t
know them, who didn’t know the now colorful story of Attorney Alexis Davis and Attorney Ric Lansing would have thought,
look at those two in love
Alexis looked at Ric. He grinned
but she didn’t back
“What is it?”
he asked quietly holding his breath
She had hesitated all night
about telling her good news
It was great news but telling
him made her heart ache
“Alexis”
“I bought a house”
she said rather unexcitedly
They stopped dancing
“That’s, that’s
great” Ric stumbled as he tried to pick the rhythm of the dance back up
“Ric, I know…”
she said following his lead
He said nothing as she continued
“I know it seems weird
or…” she laughed nervously
“Heartbreaking”
Ric interjected
“Yeah”
“I’m happy for
you. It’s what you and the girls need. A home, a back yard…”
“Ric”
She watched him swallow hard
“It’s just hard not being apart of
it” he admitted
“I know, I know” she said her eyes
clenching shut
“I mean, my wife and kids are moving in
to a house they’re going to be happy in, that they’re going to call home… And I’m, I’m not”
“Ric we just have to…”
“It’s entirely my fault. I brought
it all on myself. You gave me the life I always wanted and I screwed it up. I don’t deserve it”
“You do deserve it! You deserve to have
all of it. But right now playing husband and wife with me isn’t how it’s going to work. If you and I are going
to be together, then we have to do it right for the sake of what’s left of our sanity and our hearts and if anything
for the sake of our children”
Ric shook his head agreeing
“I know I can’t expect things not
to change. I know I can’t expect for you to not go on with your life…”
“I’m not going on without you! But
you’re right I can’t stand still while we’re trying to figure out what is going on between us. I can’t
do that because Chloe and Kristina need a home and not just a cramped apartment that their undomesticated mother feels secure
in. I have to create this life for them and I want you in it. I would love more than anything if we were moving in to this
house as a family, as if we were just plain ol’ boring us. But it’s not reality at least not right now…”
Ric leaned in close enough that her chin rested
on her shoulder
“Is it far?” he said suddenly
His change in subject
Alexis let out a deep breath
“Grandview”
“A block or so from my apartment”
Ric said wide eyed
Alexis shook her head giving him a slight smile
“It will be ok” she assured
“Because I’ll make it ok” Ric
responded very seriously
Alexis looked in to his eyes then buried her chin
in to his shoulder
Her hand slid to the back of his head
She was holding him
They were dancing and holding
She wanted to kiss him for solace
He wanted to kiss her because he knew she could
give him just that… solace
His hands once wrapped around her waist, now only
pulled her in to a firmer embrace
“We should go”
Ric pulled from her and shook his head agreeing
She needed to go
If she didn’t she would be the one that
caved
She would be the one that kissed him first, that
lead him to the apartment and would guide his hand to the undoing of her dress…
She would have caved first
Home
He would come in only to kiss their already sleeping
little girls goodnight
“Thank you for tonight” Alexis said
fumbling with the lapel of his jacket
Ric smiled “You’re very welcome. Thank
you for accepting to go out on such short notice”
She grinned
Another awkward moment between lovers that weren’t
She leaned in giving him a lingering kiss to the
cheek
Just what he needed, it would get him through
He didn’t say the word goodnight. Ric didn’t
say anything else at all
He let her watch him step on the elevator and
he watched her eyes until the door closed between them
End Ch. 6