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Alexis Ned said surprised to see her standing in front of him
When she didnt answer he thought for a moment he was dreaming of her
Alexis? He said again this time hoping she would answer
Alexis seemed frozen for that moment suddenly realizing thats he was standing there in his living room before the sun had even come up
Youre door was open Im, Im not sure why it was open, I mean why came in She said already fumbling for her thoughts
I mustve fell asleep He said looking at her still puzzled
I can see that? She said looking quickly at all of the things Ned had scattered all over the couch but not noticing they were their things, not noticing they were her things
Alexis, have you been up all night?
Uh yeah, I just came in from San Francisco
You were with Matthew? He said as he quickly realized it was the wrong question and response
Yeah I was She replied bluntly
Ned paused for a moment seemingly very nervous that she was there. That she could see he had been having a pity part over her
Why are you here? he asked finally but not wasting to seem as if he wanted her to go away
Im not really sure. I mean I, I dont know. She said letting out a nervous breath I just came, my brain, my feet got me to your front door
At 6:00 in the morning?
Youre right, Im sorry, Ill go. Well talk later she said as she began to back away from him
Alexis! Are you ok? He said wishing that for once she would say no
Alexis paused just watching for his eyes looking for the man that she loved to reach out his arms. Arms that would break and heal her heart all in one touch.
Forgetting everything was strewn all over the couch he pointed for her to sit and she obliged
Before she sat she noticed all the familiar things that surrounded her and she turned back to look at Ned with sad eyes
Uh call it a pity party, he said not knowing how to explain what he had been doing with those things lying there
Ned
She turned and looked at him and his full attention was to her
I met Matthew in a bar in San FranciscoI, I was feeling sorry for myself and I drank too much, and Matthew just happen to be in the same situation and we drank together the next morning I woke up in his bed
Alexis things like that happen he said in her defense and being understanding
Ned, that night Matthew and I got married
A lump filled Neds throat and he suddenly couldnt seem to breathe.
Ned she said wanting him to respond
You married him, youre married Ned said finally as he couldnt believe the word he was repeating
Alexis let out a nervous laugh
Its crazy, I know but I was alone and Matthew was there at I guess the right time and hes perfect
Alexis he said shaking his head not wanting to hear anymore
Hes perfect Ned but hes not you
Ned stopped in his tracks and Alexis continued
Were getting a divorce as soon as I can get the papers together
But you stayed married all this time?
I gave it a chance, I tried to get on with my life
So why are you getting a divorce now?
It didnt work outhe knows my secret Alexis said as she took her eyes off of him and picked up the envelope to their wedding invitations
Your secret? Ned questioned as watched her slide the envelope back and forth between her fingers
He knows I cant get over you
Ned was stunned by her boldness though he wished for her to say those words a thousand times
Over me? was all he repeated
Alexis fidgeted for a moment obviously a bit embarrassed about what she was about to tell him
I screamed your name
What?
Matthew and I were making love and I screamed your name
Ned didnt know what to say or do. He wanted to grin from ear to ear. He wanted to take hold of her and remind her why she thought of him.
You screamed my name
Alexis looked away, shaking her head
But he took her face in his hand making her look at him in the eyes
I cant play the game where everyone knows I love you one minute then I pretend I dont the next, because it doesnt work like that for me. I cant stop loving you. I tried to get passed us, I tried to move on, I tried to let you move on, but then I would fall back into nights like this and its you all over all over again
You cant get over me, she said emphatically
He knew that she knew exactly what he was talking about
No I cant
This time she placed her hands his face and pulled him to her lips and she gently let her lips graze his
We cant find our ending, we cant find our breaking point, so how do we get over? Alexis said in a pleading tone as she still held him close
Some things you just dont get over I guess. he said knowing that the reality was now that he had the love of his life standing there in front of him and he knew now that he should never let go
Where do we go from here? She questioned
He took a moment to study her face and to set the mood
Here he responded as he leaned in to kiss her And then here He said as his lips trailed down her neck
Ned She said suddenly stopping him and wishing for once she would stop thinking
I dont know if we should do this
Ned took a moment to gather his thoughts and tried to be patient
Alexis began to shake her head.
I dont want to mess this up, I cant, I cant mess this up, not again She said as she backed away from Ned
Alexis he said trying to stop her from backing away from him
She shook her head in her own disbelief that she was making herself walk away from him, that she was making herself think things through. He knew now her secret about Matthew and he knew now that she still loved him.
Ned then shook his head allowing her to back her way out of the door
Alexis, just know I love you ok! he said with his voice almost quivering
She bit down on her lip and looked at him before walking out the door
I love you too
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