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Chapter 12
Alexis glared at the hand that lay across her stomach. He held her almost as if she were his security blanket. Touching her gently just making sure she was there. She had been watching him for a while now photographing him in her mind. The way he looked with his morning stubble and his hair standing on ends. She smiled at how a grown man could look so much like a little boy when he slept.
She swept her fingers across his arm and he shifted and his eyes opened at her touch
Good morning sleepy head she said grinning at the sight of his blue morning eyes
Good morning he said giving her a grin while stretching out his arms Have you been awake long?
For a little while
You should have woke me
You looked too peaceful for me to wake you
Harrison reached up and kissed the side of her head
Whats got you up so early?
Just thinking about some things I guess
Is something bothering you
No! She answered quickly sounding nervous
Ok? Confused by her sudden reaction
Alexis sat up on the side of the bed turning her face to the wall. Harrison wasnt sure what she was doing as he watched her. She sat there for a moment before Harrison decided to run his hand down her naked back, following the course of her spine.
She breathed in and then out and Harrison watched her back rise and fall.
What are you thinking about? he said breaking the silence in the room
Alexis took a moment and then turned to Harrison with tears welled up in her eyes
Harrison sat up
You can talk to me, he said confused why she was so upset but immediately wanting to comfort her
Its nothing Im just being
What is it?
I wish I could wake up every morning with this feeling
I dont think I understand
I know Im being silly
Youre not being silly but I still dont understand
I havent been this happy in a long time. I mean really and truly happy. I wake up with you and I never have to worry about getting through the day without having someone on my side.
And I always want you to feel this way Lex
Alexis turned her body to Harrison wrapping her thin long legs around him securing her body with his.
Im so bad at this
Youre truly not making any sense
Harrison I love you she blurted
It took a moment to let her words sink in
You love me?
I love you
A grin covered Harrisons face
Finally he whispered
She bit at her bottom lip and then smiled shyly back at him
He wrapped his arms around her and squeezed her tightly against him
I love you so much, she said sounding as if now she wanted to assure him over and over
He looked at her in the eyes and held the side of her face
I love you too
They kissed and kissed like they were two teenagers in high school who had just professed their love to each other. They let each kiss assure the other and they were going to make love again when the phone rang.
Ignore it! Harrison said in between kisses
Dont you want to answer it? She said continuing to kiss him
No!
Answer it or it will drive me crazy she said separating herself from him
Harrison leaned over Alexis and answered the phone
Harrison Blair yes what happened? Alexis felt his body tense and he sat up. No!Oh God!.. And is he ok yes, I will as soon as possible! Will he be ok where she is thank you All right see you soon.
Whats wrong?
Harrison sat up on the side of the bed in silence for a moment and held his face in his hands. He then quickly jumped up
I have to go to London
London? What happened
Uh its uh complicated, Harrison said fumbling around
Harrison! Alexis said grabbing him by the arm
Lex, Ill be back ok Harrison truly looked heart broken
Harrison what ever it is let me go with you. Let me help you
You cant help! He snapped at her
Alexis took a step back from him shouting at her. Harrison quickly realized what he had done and began to apologize
Im sorry baby, Im so sorry. Some one very special to me has died in a car accident
Harrison Im so sorry but please if you need to go let me be by your side
Lex its complicated
Honey how could it be that complicated?
Theres something I didnt tell you
Alexis was suddenly looking at unfamiliar eyes
Harrison what is it? Who was it that died?
Harrison squeezed his eyes shut.
She was just someone Lex, I
When you asked was he ok is that your secret? Alexis said seriously
I dont know how to handle this right now Alexis
Honey, if it is a woman in your life
Its not like that, I promise I need to shower, will you please see if you can get us a flight into London and let me explain let me explain to you the situation on the plane so if you do hate me you will at least be stuck with me for a few hours. And I can hopefully make you understand
Harrison youre scaring me
Please he pleaded
Ill call, go get in the shower
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Before they knew it they were in the air flying over the Atlantic Ocean. Alexis was trying to give Harrison time to tell her this obvious secret that he was so afraid was going to hurt her. She had set herself up for the worst. She couldnt imagine what kind of secret he could harbor that would affect her that much
Harrison squeezed her hand and Alexis held tightly to him. He was shaken by the death of whoever this person was but also to tell Alexis who she was.
Harrison, youre going to have a heart attack if you dont just let this out. I can handle it ok. I mean how much can I be shocked after living my life? She said letting out a shy smile
Harrison looked at Alexis
Natalie, her name was Natalie and uh she and I met a couple of months after you left London. We had and on and off again thing She lived in Paris and so we were just kind of be each others confidante and lover. She was smart and beautiful and she would
Take your mind off of what I did?
Lex! She understood what had happened. She understood how much I still loved you. She even made me see how maybe you felt from a womans perspective
Alexis swallowed the lump in her throat
Im so sorry Harrison and she sounded like a beautiful woman in every sense Alexis said sincerely suddenly glad that she was there for him. So what happened?
Harrison took in a deep breath
She came by one day and said - she was pregnant Alexis eyes widened And she said that it was my baby Alexis still said nothing only listening intently. And I thought I could love her and I tried to take care of her and provide for her as much as she needed me to. But she was still her own woman and she didnt want to give up her life or the baby. So we went our separate ways and I became a father to my son who I love more than life itself but his mother and I were two separate people and after he was born it never became more obvious that we live in two separate worlds. And thats the way its been his whole life
How old is he?
Hes three
Whats his name?
These were not the questions Harrison was expecting
Harry short for
Harrison she said finishing his thought
This is strange for me to ask but why are you taking this so well
Im stunned but why would I take it so bad? The part that gets me the most is that you didnt tell me
I didnt know if you could handle me having a son
First of all it shouldnt matter to you if I could handle it or not hes your son
I didnt want it to scare you away
Why would it scare me?
Harrison wasnt sure how to answer without hurting her feeling or making her feel completely uncomfortable
I just never thought children were something you would want to have and then me finally getting back to you made it harder for me to say, hey Alexis by the way I have a three year old son
So you werent going to tell me?
I wanted to tell you everyday but I wanted us to be able to reconnect and show you how much I love you before I made it too complicated
Too complicated? Meaning that I might say I cant handle a kid so theres no me and you?
Thats not what I meant
Alexis only looked at Harrison knowing good and well thats what he meant
Who is he with now? she said changing the subject
He is with friends
They sat there in silence for a while. Harrison had a million things to worry about and Alexis tried to let it all sink in.
A few hours later they arrived in London. Harrison again held Alexis hand tightly for re-assurance and she stood by him as promised. Though she was probably was more scared than she had ever been in her life.
Harrison knocked on the door and moments later the door opened to a woman holding the spitting image of Harrison.
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