2 AM

Ned reached for her she was gone

He was in a sudden panic

What about her promise to never leave him

Search for her

She hadnt gone far

There she was bundled up on his couch

In the top half of her infamous pajamas, the ones she had obviously found that he had hidden away in his own pajama drawer

She sat in front of the television laughing

2AM she was laughing

Each little antic the character on the television poked fun at seemed to make her laugh, laugh out loud

She didnt sleep

He knew she wasnt sleeping like she use to, like any normal person but he had completely missed that she was no longer sleeping all together

Alexis

She was startled at the sight of him

Hi she said reluctantly as if she had been caught

He sat down on the couch beside her

I didnt know you were a Nick At Night fan

Have you ever seen this show before its hysterical

Ned was puzzled

Alexis everyone has seen that show, it use to be the most popular show on television

Oh

Oh sorry forgot you werent as American as apple pie

She let out a shy grin

Guess I missed some good TV

She seemed ok

Why dont you come get in bed with me?

Why dont you watch TV with me?

Alexis its passed 2 AM

She didnt like his point

You go ahead ok, Ill be there in a little while

Hours ago she pleaded to be in his arms. She begged for him to never let go of her. She confessed love

The dark shadow that hovered over her, the sadness that lingered in her soul no longer allowed her peace, no longer allowed her sleep

He let out a deep breath trying not to be outdone by her

Trying to be sympathetic

Baby you need to sleep

Ned I cant ok

You cant or you dont want to?

Jax would be proud of you

What

Trying to make me sleep, explaining how rational it is

Alexis its normal

She laughed again, it wasnt the same as before, her laughter was cold
Normal? she questioned

Ok fine

What?

You want something to not sleep about

What are you talking about?

Their dead

Alexis eyes widened

How dare he?

Ned!

Kristinas dead, the babys dead youre not

She didnt have an immediate response to his boldness, to his outbursts

You Alexis are not in the land of the living he continued

Maybe Id rather be dead

Alexis

Ned it hurts, Ive said it I admit it. It hurts. I cant take it everyday is worse than the day before and do I wish I was dead? Do I wish I could have a chance to have been in Kristinas place?

Alexis you dont mean what youre saying

I dont know if I do I dont know anymore.

Silence

The great attorney

The invincible

The queen of verbal repartee said nothing

Alexis Im sorry

She knew what pain felt like when it hit

She knew what honesty felt like when it came out

She was a Cassadine

Then

Maybe this was a bad idea

Alexis

She looked at him

He watched it happen

The way she could just turn on and off

He grabbed her

For a moment she struggled

down down down

A mountain crumbled

But landed in his arms

The point where someone breaks

She screamed for mercy

She shook from pain

She cried

Everything inside her became a river and it overflowed